Focus.

I found this diagram above shared on Tumblr and found it very interesting. It's true - only focus on things that matter which you have total control over. I think I should have this diagram on my phone's lock screen to constantly remind myself. 

Anyway, today was good. I opened up a little more; spent more time & shared more laughter than I normally would with my classmates. I should do this more often from today onwards. :)

Feelings aside, I have a seminar (individual presentation on a given topic) coming up this Friday. I feel so screwed. A presentation so soon in front of my new classmates? Yes, I am very self-conscious. Very. I think maybe it's because I don't talk much in class and now I will be given no choice but to speak up in front of everybody & what's worse - in front of my lecturers. 

I really should get off here & start rehearsing my presentation. Till then, xo.

My First (emo) Post.

Good evening.

Sorry for the irrelevant photo (& also rubbish photoshop skills lol), but this is a much needed throwback. Those were the days when I could wander anywhere at anytime at all because I really was that free. Maybe I'm just feeling nostalgic right now because I've been that free for so long and now I'm always tied up with seminars, lab reports, & revision. I'm sick & tired. What's worse is that only a week (or two) has passed since school started.

I hung out with the same person throughout my holiday and yeah, I was hella comfortable. When I get close to someone, that's probably the only someone I'm going to hang out with most of the time. I guess, I'm clingy like that (?). This is definitely the worst trait I have because now that school has started and shit, I couldn't still can't make any new friends. I don't know what has gotten into me but I just can't seem to talk to people. & by talk I mean be close to.

It really sucks to not have someone you're close to in your class because you're gonna end up studying most of the time with your headphones on just to seem like you don't mind being alone at all (I was so describing myself in class). I mean, who likes studying? Alone? Lol, I don't. How ironic is it that I'm in a course that needs tonnes and tonnes of studying, lol.

Maybe I'm just missing this very special person whom I used to be with all the time back then in my foundation course. He taught me so many things (other than academics) & one of them is trust. But now that he has left to another health science course, I felt like that has been completely stripped off of me.

Perghh, so dramatic. It's not like I'm totally alone. I have two friends in class right now (ha ha).

I should start growing up and stop acting like a child about this.
I should start concentrating on my studies instead.
I should go off to bed.

Goodnight.