That's not the way it feels.

I was going through my older albums earlier (which I find myself doing quite often now & then ever since I revisited them for the completion of my e-portfolio) & well, what can I say… I feel very… uneasy? Sad? Idk, just nostalgic, I suppose. I really, really miss everything – from having brown hair all the way to all-my-clothes-must-be-cropped. Lol, that phase in life though.

There's something different about all the #ootd & #wiwt shots taken before this but I find it extremely difficult to pinpoint what. They (my expressions) just seem more – genuine? Though I find (in most of the pictures) myself not looking directly at the camera (because you gotta look cool for instagram, right?) but I am very sure that I looked better than I actually did. Does that statement make any sense to you?

The person behind the camera, in my opinion, plays a huge role in picture taking. And yes, I know, who doesn’t know that? But I don’t mean by just getting the job done & over with except to really see your beauty through the lenses and to be able to capture them; that’s something not anyone can do. What’s magical about this is that, it can be felt by whomever that’s going to view the photos of you. The relationship between the photographer & the person in the photo is just, so outlandish.

Thank you for seeing the beauty in me at any given time even when I was at my worst. You truly were, an angel sent from above. & I apologise, for being a fool's gold.